clown

From QY's blog:
Clowns are entertainers.
But they're also often misunderstood ppl.
How does it feel to make someone laugh,
yet cry silently to oneself,
when one is out of everybody else's sight?
Sometimes - or all the time - they mask themselves too well
under layers and layers of make-up.

So I am a clown, but jester sounds alot nicer.