The beginning is always the hardest.

does that mean it can only get better or will it worsen...

last laugh is mine

八十八个琴键之间, 怎么样组织起来, 才能创作出一首好听的音乐?

i'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine.

Coincidence? well, 2 days in a row don't mean much to me now.

Stop scaring the shit out of me.

My heart skipped a beat when you passed today. Adrenaline rush.

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Admiration is... a feeling furthest away from understanding

Rat rat rat rat rat rat rat rat......

Its the betrayal that you don't see coming that is the most hurtful.

Sorry girl i cant be your friend.

i think i am sick and yet i don't think so. Its just i have been sleeping for more than 12 hours in the past 24 hours. So i feel sick, like mind is not moving and just waiting for time to pass. Theres also a strong urge to sleep again, but i just woke up. Just the start of the holidays and i am getting this crap....

pictures of you

It's just a few pictures. Am i thinking too much. I hope so. 2 pictures won't show anything. Oh crap. i keep contradicting myself, nonchalant about the fact when people are around, but doubtful of my arrogance when alone. Then again i feel a sudden surge of energy telling me to believe in what i want, boosting my assurance. Deep inside, i will still have to face the fact. Perhaps i have been lying too much such that I don't even know what to believe. I enjoy digging out information out of people without them knowing and safeguarding my secrets at the same time. Deceiving? Yet i am observant and meticulous enough to notice tiny clues to justify my hypothesis. I think i know too much. Ignorance is bliss

clown

From QY's blog:
Clowns are entertainers.
But they're also often misunderstood ppl.
How does it feel to make someone laugh,
yet cry silently to oneself,
when one is out of everybody else's sight?
Sometimes - or all the time - they mask themselves too well
under layers and layers of make-up.

So I am a clown, but jester sounds alot nicer.