problem

I AM PROBLEMATIC! :D

friends

Perfect Trust.
Unwavering Loyalty.

Are they so difficult to find?

dancedancedance

S.O.S. Let The Music Play- Jordin Sparks

Give It To Me- Madonna

Last First Kiss

Nothing much, Teachers' Day tmr. Looking forward to dance! Not reko and prem though lol.

I wanna be your last first kiss

lucky guy

Lucky guy, whoever is he... i really hate this feeling. And the worst part is that people close to me are experiencing it as well. At least we have each other. Thats what i always tell myself. Night study is a fun, productive( for me at least, dunno about keith for i was talking to him half the time. ops )heart to heart talk sharing session. LOL.
Still, guy friends are the best!!! Brotherhood.

Drown yourself in music

Half the day i was cuddling in my blanket while its raining outside and blasting MUSE in those earpiece of mine. Well, its quite effective of relieving the pain. Another hetic week ahead. Nightstudy is fun. Post-nightstudy events are unpredictable. Who knows who will you see after school. I need new clothes soon, oh ya, spending money is also a good way to make yourself feel better. The more you spend, the better you feel!

heart and soul

i shouldn't be looking anymore. Left halfway at lunch today. Well, i was in the mood of being alone. fell asleep the moment i got home. Very tired due to those night studies and late night sleeps. No hope with friendster either.
But its so stupid of me to keep on searching even though i know the answer. It might have been...

So what??

You came into my life.
Quietly simply placidly
and my words stood still.


I couldn't express in words
or simple gesture
the secret i kept.


So I loved you in silence.
Admired you from a distance.
Dreamt of you from afar.


I wanted to say I love you...
I wanted to say i care.
But cowardly, maybe,
you'll only laugh at me.


So, in silence then i will love you...
In silence then i will care.

Almost there and the line broke.

Great day with Night Study. After i bathed while walking towards the canteen, saw you-know-who, pretty as always. But i just decided to look away. Oh den the BEST part of the night happened. There she was, in her clique of 4. Getting cuter everytime i see. Walked past each other once, i swear i didnt walk towards her on purpose. And i was telling Sam that I am dead for today's nightstudy and it was true. ZERO work done. Well, she did leave the canteen, but came back in the end. Shit. She sat down at a table, directly in front of me. I could feel her overpowering aura and for the first one and a half hour, i was controlling my breathing and feeling very tense and nervous. Of course, i glanced at her every now and then. Hey its only normal for me to do that right. Can't Take My Eyes Off You was playing on my iPod, and i wrote out the lyrics. Followed by If I Fell by Maroon 5. Well, it was kinda ridiculous but i felt that it was right. I didn't eat anything for the break today, i just sat down there and continued with my work while the rest were eating away. I really had the urge to sit on the same table with Jeffri. But my excuse was always not wanting to screw up, the actual fact is i got no balls. At the rate i am going, the only time that i will take a risk is when i totally give up on her and her reaction to my approach woudn't affect me in anyway. Its pretty ironic. I barely befriend anyone easily, and i doubt that she would too. Too bad this is life. Live with it. And i am really not sad if anyone of you're thinking. Not that anyone reads my blog anyway.

lost touch

omg i am blogging again, lost the touch lol. but yea, lots of stuff happened while i was on hiatus, old friend becoming dam f-ed up. Caught up with OLDER friends. Kinda expanded my social circle a little. I shall go for night study tmr, but that means that i will have to go straight home to bed after that, 2hours on transport is a huge time consumption. I am getting tired. going to bed soon.